Commentary -- Gays, God abhors you
By Nellis Kennedy
Growing up in a Christian family with conservative values, I found myself constantly seeking the Lord. Like a good teenager, I never cursed. I never drank. I never smoked. I never did drugs. But my passion for Christ drove me further. Daily, I ate the spiritual food found in Scripture. I began every day with a time of devotion and prayer. I fasted when the Spirit led me to it. In chastity, I saved myself for my spouse. I hosted youth group devotionals, taught children's class at church, led women's prayer groups, and devoted myself to the church and to community service.
As salutatorian of a private Christian school, I graduated near the top of my class. Later, I graduated on the dean's list from one of the more conservative Christian colleges in the U.S. with a degree in Bible. Just recently, I graduated from law school, where I served on the board of our school's Christian student group.
Today, the scenery around me has changed, but my life is pretty much the same. I still attend church and serve my community. I continue to lose myself in Scripture and have dreams of attending seminary. However, now I am treated differently. You see, I am gay and my wife and I were recently happily married in Winnipeg.
About four years ago, I met my beautiful, elegant and precious wife. I remember falling in love with her and the pain it caused me. I could not understand what was happening. Never had I experienced this type of love. I felt lost and condemned after remembering the words from the pulpit that I grew up listening to and heeding. In an instant, I lost every friend I ever had, every sister in Christ. I lost my family, for some time. I fasted for days, prayed and experienced serious depression. I prayed for the Lord to remove me from this world. I would later learn about the high suicide rate among homosexuals for the crosses we are forced to bear. For months, I felt dead to myself and only survived by scriptural sustenance and prayer. God had a greater plan for me, and here I am, living it out.
A few months later and I am still confused, I attended a gay pride parade where Christian protesters gathered. I expected to see them praying and trying to talk to those involved in the parade. My heart broke and my life changed forever when I saw what they were really doing. The protesters held signs saying things like, "GOD ABHORS YOU," "Shame," "You're going to HELL," "God Hates Fags" and other horrible things. It was then that I realized this was not Christ's intention. Today, I thank God for those signs, as disgusting as they were, they made me understand the Lord better.
The two greatest commands are simple: 1) Love the Lord your God with your heart, soul and mind; 2) Love your neighbor as yourself. Which of these have I not done? Which commandment have I broken? In purity, I lay with my wife in the Lord's eyes without shame. I have had Scripture thrown in my face, but never has it been New Testament. Not that it would matter. You see, early writers translated the phrase "sexual perversion" as "homosexuality." I do not, nor have I ever, engaged in sexual perversion. I have never invited an animal into my bed and have never committed adultery.
Why would followers believe that Christ could ever hate someone? Are we not all created in His image and precious in His eyes? I hear Christ's followers, calling me and others like me, disgusting names. Did Christ ever use such language and call others names? Today, I hear kids and adults saying, "That's so gay." Do they know what it means or how it hurts me? We fear what we do not know and for that reason, I pray we all understand. In a city such as this, we could all use some education. I pray our children will no longer fear that which Christ does not condemn.
Nellis Kennedy has degrees in Political Science, Spanish and Bible and a J.D. with special emphasis in Natural Resources and Federal Indian Law. She is currently an environmental activist living in Detroit Lakes.